You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. Psalm 56:8
God would not collect our tears in a bottle if our grieving were not precious moments with Him. Even though precious, grief is a messy emotion. It’s face can be tear-stained, blank, or a pasted on smile. Sometimes we camouflage it well. Other times there is no mask stiff enough and large enough to cover the fact that we are engulfed in the moment. How do we get through it?
With God’s loving mercy, be kind to yourself. Sleep on the couch & sleep in if you need to. Sip tea & watch the birds fly in the sky. Take a deep breath. Wonder slowly through a park.
I’m learning to give myself permission to forget the task at hand. Grieving has no rules and takes time. We need to allow ourselves to stop and recall, stop and weep, stop and drink in a memory. Don’t miss a valuable moment of healing and moving forward. I’m also writing a journal of all the fun times I had with Glen along with my reflections to God.
If you’re grieving, surround yourself with positive people. You know who they are. Even if it’s long distance, it’s absolutely necessary. I’m also giving myself permission to try new things. It’s hard because we want to hold on to things out of fear of forgetting, but I know I won’t forget. It’s good that God sent me to a place that holds no memories to be my aid in moving on. When it feels right, change old habits.
Last week Glen said to me “Guard your health.” He always cared for my spiritual and physical well being. Now, when we are numbed by grief you might feel like ‘Who cares?”. You might feel like you have no reserve to focus on anything more than simply making it through each hour, each day. But I can tell you that it feels good when you are able to focus on some exercise that renews your body and your mind. Honest.
Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others that may be going through something you’re unaware of. And remember that grieving is not only normal, but every tear matters to God.